Nervous....yet Excited!!!

SO excited for tomorrow. Tomorrow is the 7th, meaning it is THE day. Testing. Although technically I do not test until Sunday the 8th, I am pumped for tomorrow!! My boyfriend and 2 of my friends are signed up for Farrell's and they are about to embark on the most amazing transformation their bodies have seen! Tomorrow morning, 8am, I will be rooting for these 3 from home. Well, actually 4. My best friend Kelly is jumping back on the Farrell's train. She is re-doing her 10 weeks and I couldn't be prouder of her for coming back. I am so not ready for testing. All my same fears are creeping up...what if I am last to finish my mile? What if my weight has gone up X amount of pounds? What if my body fat is such and such? GAH. Basically it comes down to WHO CARES. I am back on. Back in. I can't wait until Monday to beat the s*&t  ;) out of those bags. Pardon me.

Want to know something? So, clearly I have an unhealthy relationship with food, and tonight Travis (my boyfriend) and I decided to have one last fast food meal for 10 weeks. We went to Wendy's. I am going to tell you what I ate. I had a double bacon cheeseburger, medium french fries (which really are like a large) and a REGULAR coke. Not to mention I may have had a nugget or two of Travis's. Want to take a stab at how I feel?? Gross. Greasy. My stomach feels...ugh. How come I can never remember this feeling I have right now when I want to eat this way?? My mind does not remember what my body goes through at this time. My belly is hanging over my sweatpants, my intestines are yelling at me WTF ABBY?? No really though, you do feel the physical effects of the unhealthy food. I know how I feel when I eat healthy food, and how amazing I feel when I do so, I just can't seem to make myself remember just how barfy I feel after eating straight up grease. When will I learn?

I am ready though, ready for whatever lies before me these next 10 weeks. Not only am I ready to see my friend's transformations but I am ready to see my own. I know what I am capable of and I want to go even further. I want to get back to that level 10. I want to run 5ks again. This is my jumping off point again. Sorry if you get sick of seeing pics of me, but it helps me remember what once was. This is my jumping off point in September of 2010:

Sunday I will post my jumping off point again....and hopefully Travis will let me post his. :) I am scared, I am nervous...but I am ready. Bring it.