Sunday of Rest

5 days?! Really? It has been 5 days since I last blogged? Wow this week just flew by. Tuesday through Thursday I went to early (and I mean EARLY) Farrell's classes. 5:30 am Tues, 5am Weds and 5:30 am Thursday classes. Each day kicked my butt, but it's all in the name of dedication, right? I think I was in bed around 9 or 10 pm each of those nights as well. I must take a second to toot my own horn though. I made 7 of 7 workouts this week...all 6 regularly scheduled as well as the 75 minute kickboxing class for FIT members on Saturday. All while battling a nasty cold. Travis also made all 6 of 6 workouts. I am pretty proud of both of us with how our week turned out. We both hit it seriously hard.  Now today, we rest.

I am trying to take this challenge as serious as I took my first 10 weeks. The hardest part of that is not stepping on a scale every day. You are not to weigh until the 5 week test, which is on February 11th, then not again until the final test which is on March 17. I am used to stepping on the scale every morning before my shower. Not sure why that became my habit, but it did. So, I am trying as hard as I can to not get on the scale out of habit in the morning. I am also trying to be as patient as I can with myself. I worked hard this week, ate really really good...I feel I look exactly the same. I realize that this weight gain I have didn't take place over night and that it is going to take just as long if not longer to come off again...but it is hard to want to be somewhere so bad, knowing full well I have done it before. I have 9 more weeks left to reach my goal. I have decided my goal for this 10 week challenge is to lose 25 lbs. It's a pretty big goal, but it could very well be within reach.

With Farrell's you are allowed a "free" day. Meaning that if you ate as you are supposed to all week, made all the workouts, then one day of the week you can use to eat whatever you want. Travis and I took ours yesterday. All week long he has been craving pizza. I love pizza as well so we decided that would be our free meal. He came home with a large sausage pizza and a large cheese pizza...as well as garlic breadsticks. He ate his entire pizza. I ate 3 slices and 4 breadsticks. Let me tell you...I felt like total crap afterwards. What is surprising to me is that I normally can eat a large cheese pizza by myself. (It was thin crust...as if that really makes a difference) I couldn't force myself to eat any more. But, now it sits in my fridge...taunting me. Eff you pizza!

Speaking of taunting...I got my van back this week. It has been in the shop getting fixed after Bambi's mom decided to go all suicidal. I got in my van...and there...staring at me...evidence of my "old" life. Two fun size butterfingers. Right there. Taunting me. The reason this is a big deal is because one of my oldest habits is one of my hardest to break. Eating and driving. It is nothing for me to go on a drive and buy candy or some other crap to pass the time. Eating while driving doesn't really count right? I mean no one can see you shove a king size butterfinger and cheese filled breadsticks in your mouth...so if no one can see you it didn't really happen, right? It is pretty embarrassing to admit, and I am sure I am not alone, but I was very much a closet eater. Before I took the very first step over a year ago to regain my health, it was not unheard of for me to make a gas station run to get a "snack". What my ex husband didn't know at the time was that when I would go to the gas station, I would buy us treats, but I would buy myself two and drive around town to eat one, then eat the other one when I got home. I felt like I had to hide it. I don't know why but it brought me peace. Fed my addiction. Got my little fix...until the next time. I don't do that anymore, but the other bad habit I did fall into was treating myself like I "deserved" it. If I can justify my addiction then it is ok. Turns out it isn't, and it still leads to packing on the pounds. This being said, it is important to let yourself have a treat once in awhile. If I hold myself back from something I am craving for too long, it leads me to eat way too much of whatever it is I am craving. I know everyone is different, but for me this is how it goes. I am also one who has to have something sweet nearly every day. Thank goodness for "free days."  I have been battling this many ways...with pineapple juice, blow pops, and starlight mints. If you have any other suggestions let me know!


In a blender, crush the following items:
6 ice cubes
1/4 c OJ
carton of dannon activia light yogurt (any kind)
handful of either strawberries, blueberries, raspberries or blackberries (or a bit of each)

after all that is crushed together, then add one scoop of your choice of protein powder. I use vanilla. Use the pulse feature on your blender to get all the powder evenly mixed. It helps it from sticking to the sides of the blender and from having chunks in your smoothie.

It is amazing and is a yummy start to the day.

Well, I better close. One week closer to my size 10s. I just know it.