Blargh.

The title of my entry today sums up just how I am feeling. Blargh. I would like to submit that to Merriam Webster please. It basically means sonofacrapsucktasticblah. :) First off, unless you live under a rock (a very cold rock) you know that our weather is less than desirable today. I have not ever had to shovel snow a day in my life...except once maybe in high school. My mom thinks it is funny to remember the time I shoveled in high school. She watched me from the window and took pictures, all while I am yelling "where am I supposed to put the snow?" I wasn't terribly bright that day I guess. It is no secret that I hate the cold. I can stand snow, but not the cold. I swear Utah's winters were warm. Tons of snow, but the temperature was warm! Iowa, yeah. Not even close. I have this foot problem, stemming from a spinal anesthesia mishap with my second born, and when its cold, my foot can barely function it hurts so bad. So that is one reason I hate the cold. The other is well, cold = winter. Winter is my least favorite. Blargh.

Snow and winter just have to go and mess many things up! School cancellations, activity cancellations, 15 minutes to drive 4 miles...blargh! Snow just messed up my Friday plans. Travis and I had planned on getting to Farrell's around 5-ish and doing the 5:30 kickboxing class and part of the 6:30 class as long as the class wasn't too crowded. Classes were cancelled. Hmm. Time to think of an alternate workout. I missed lower body bands last night because of an appointment for my son. I did an alternate workout though! I was proud of myself. Thank you Spongebob for babysitting my kids for a half hour so I could treadmill it up! I did intervals of 2 minutes each: fast walk, slow jog, run, slow jog, fast walk, etc. I did that for 30 minutes. I definitely need to find my ipod. Or I need to get a new one. Sirius on TV was just not cutting it for me last night...and when I run, I need music like Korn or Limp Bizkit or something that isn't sloowwww. Angry Abby runs better than docile Abby. RAWR!
Once my sweaty self got my kiddos to bed, I hunkered down for a set of super star abs. I did the entire intermediate set. Well, except V-ups. I can't do them. If you don't know what a V-up is that's ok. They aren't worth getting to know. :)

So tonight. Gotta think of something. I am fairly certain I have some old Billy Blanks tapes somewhere. Maybe I could get Travis to do some yoga with me. If anything it would be good for a laugh. :) I certainly don't want to shovel snow for my workout. I mean, where would I put it?!

Do any of you watch Biggest Loser? I honestly don't watch a whole lot of TV. I used to be addicted to Prison Break when it was on (ok I still watch the DVDs or Netflix) but I rarely get into a show these days. I happened to catch the first show of the season this time around. So, Tuesdays, I now find my way to the couch to watch BL. I like to think we (the people on the show and I) are friends. We want the same things. We want to get healthy. It is a good motivator to watch them change as I change. In 2009 when I was at my worst, I actually printed off the paperwork needed for biggest loser. I couldn't make myself film a video to send in though. I felt far too embarrassed to send that video in. Good thing I don't care anymore. :) Anyway, this last Tuesday was crazy. People mouthing off to the trainers, people going home on their own free will...sheesh. Did no one appreciate the fact that they were given this amazing opportunity to turn their lives around?? The guy that left the show because he felt he was needed more at home just floored me. I thought, "yeah, you may be needed at home, but they need you to be healthy and viable at home too." Gah! Anyway, it was good to see that some contestants who didn't make it to the ranch first could possibly come back. How would some of you have done with the food challenge that they faced? Chinese buffet? I woulda rocked it. I like fried rice. That's it. And even that I can live without. Travis on the other hand, he would have been done for. This man loves buffets. ANY buffet. Chinese buffets though are probably a weakness for him. Since he has met me though he doesn't get to indulge since I am not a huge fan. I am the girl who would order chicken fried rice and french fries when we would get Chinese take out in the ICU where I used to work. Little side story: Travis and I went to the cities in September and he kept telling me about this AMAZING buffet that we just HAD to eat at on our way home. We literally drove around (in circles, on and off I-35) looking for this damn place. 30 minutes later, we arrive. It was not amazing, this man just loves buffets. And "eating what he paid for." :)

I did like what Bob had to say to one of the contestants. His advice is something we should all follow. Who you are now isn't who you once were. We have to work with who we are now. I am not who I once was and that is ok. I have to work with who I am and what I have now. Today. Not me even 7 months ago when I was at my lightest. Me, now. And even though that "me" now isn't the "me" I want to be, it's what I have to work with. I know my limits, but I also know that I can push them. Even though old Abby was 19 and a dancer on a collegiate level she was not healthy. She was a smoker, lived and ate like a college student, and slept minimally. At 30, I am in the best shape I have been in. I have many changes to make still, but I am getting there.

There is a quote floating around from Steve Jobs that I love. “Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

Don't waste time living someone else's life, even if that someone else is you 10 years ago. Live for today. Don't let people tell you what you can and cannot do. (Or do and prove them wrong! BOOM!) Opinions are like...well, maybe I won't go into that saying. It doesn't matter why you (or me) are on the journey to a healthier way of living. We don't have anything to prove to anyone. Our courage alone will get us to where we want to be. Dance it out everyone, even when you feel "blargh."